My Brain Is Running On Air

I have completely lost my mind. I didn't think I was that nervous about my upcoming gastric bypass surgery next Wednesday, Oct. 25, but I must be. I can't focus at work. Everything I touched today turned to crap. I drove 15 miles with my gas cap off and the gas door open after filling up.

It's pretty amazing to me to actually be hungry. My stomach growls and flip flops. I've felt like I was starving this week. I've tried to eat every 2 hours and that has helped. It's also strange to not eat until I'm stuffed. That's a new feeling.

I'm confused that there's no bowel prep for this surgery. I mean, they are cutting into your intestines. The physician's assistant said that it was because the diet would take care of it. Well, one would think that if you are eating 90% liquid that you would not have to have a bowel movement. I'm here to attest that is not the case. I don't know and I'm rambling about crapping so I guess I need to stop.

I've been trying to get plans in order for next week and it seems that everyone wants to see me. I've told most that they can visit me while I'm off work.

I'm going for my last appointment tomorrow before surgery. I have no idea what they are going to do to me.